Wednesday, September 8, 2010

I need to punch something

I am having possibly one of the worst weeks of my entire life.  The worst of it is that both my grandmothers are dying and only have a few days to live.  It was quite unexpected and unrelated to each other, so its really causing a lot of stress at home.  I just feel numb, like I've already lost them :( I'm praying that they pass peacefully and without pain.  God bless them both.

And then on top of that, there's just little aggravating things that are frustrating, make me want to scream. 

I need to workout or do yoga or something, I'm about to explode.  I'm stuck at Chris' apartment too, so there's no where to go :(  AHH!!!

Does anyone else have just horrid weeks like this? :( I need a hug.

And to punch something.


The road to health and happiness... said...

I'm so sorry that you're going through a hard time right now. My husband and I just spent the holiday weekend in the hospital with his grandmother in ICU struggling with breast cancer. It's horrible. I'll keep you all in my prayers.

DaniBerg said...

I'm so sorry to hear about my grandmothers, that's terrible that their BOTH going to pass very soon. You have support !

BEdevotion said...

I'm so sorry hun. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. ~hugs~

Anonymous said...

I'm very sorry to hear about your grandmothers.

I had a situation like that twice, once my dad, auntie and best friend with cancer at the same time, thank god all of them survived, and just few months ago my uncle and gramma (she was ill for a long time) died, just two months apart.

Dead is part of life, please don't get me wrong I know you already know this, and it's painful to let go, I have read that it's not good for the person leaving that we hang on to them too much because ot will make them difficult to move on.

as you said, a great thing to do is pray that their departure will be as peaceful as possible, and for their soul.

what I did and helped me was to replace any sad/angry feelings with thoghts of joy for all the wonderful moments I spent with them, thinking of all the great things that made them happy, and their legacy in our family and friends life.
It helped me to think they will go to a beautiful place, where all began... we are all here in this world for a reason, their mission is acomplished and it's time for them to be in a spiritual level where all is joy and peace, and still with all of us.

you may choose to do something they like, and honor that, what I'm doing to honor my grammy's memory is to volunteer once a month or whenever is possible with seniors or kids, my mom cooks for homeless people once in a while , you get the idea...
I understand how you feel, believe me I have been there. I was numb for a while I did not believe what was happening, actually when I was told my dad was sick, shocked me so much that I was driving and had a little accident, I was almost close to my house and I did not notice the red light, it was a little bump since I was traveling very low speed. but you can imagine how I felt...
you could read a book called "don't kiss them goodbye, by allison dobois. It helped me too. I got it from the library

It helps to visualize things, meditate, or if you have all that energy that feel like punching something , you could try to excercise in the apartment and get really tired and have a bath and sleep and relax.
once you wake up you can pray and meditate.
whenever you see them, try to have nice thoughts, they feel your energy, try you best to assured them everything will be fine.
Talk to your family, I'm sure verybody have different stories about them, you can put something together about them, like a video with everybody telling stories,or pictures, etc. celebrate their life
a big hug for you and your family, I'm praying for them and you.

Meg said...

I will be praying for you hun! Your videos bring so much cheer to others, it will come around back to you.
God bless love.


Meg <3

Shauna said...

I am very sorry about ur grandmothers!!! It's never easy to deal with death but keep ur head up and things will eventually get better!

Holly said...

aww:( they can be bestfriends in heaven<3,xx

Anonymous said...

My thoughts are with you! Good luck in this difficult time and make sure you have lots of love around you!

Anonymous said...

I am really sorry about your grandmothers. Hope you get through this hard time. I really feel with you.

Chrissy said...

I am sorry about your grandmothers and I hope that they don't suffer from pain. They both know that you love them. My thoughts are with you and your family.

sending you a big hug


Kate Gene said...

I am so sorry to hear of the losses you face. A little over ten years ago, when I was 18, I lost my grandpa. It was the first time I lost someone near to me, and it was horrific. I can only imagine the emotions you're wrangling with.

Hang in there, and stay strong! My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.


p e b b z s said...

So sad to hear about your grandmothers, It's so destressing and difficult to lose someone your close to so I cant imagine how you must feel losing two. God is with them and may he be looking down on them and take them peacefully...

A person once said to me (after losing their grandmother) that they were sooo happy for her because she had been a great believer in God for many years and she did not fear death but welcomed it, as she was greatful to God that it was her time.

I just thought that what they said was such a pleasant way to look at something so painful.

Your just having a bad week, were everything is so irritating (they are so annoying I know). Just try to focus on moving forward. This week is over now, so on to the next one :-)


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